I just keep getting weirder, and I like it.
Call it freedom, call it bliss. I’ve never felt so good in my life. Nothing is perfect, and that’s okay. I’ve always been incredibly introspective – I’m not for everyone. And that’s okay.
Have you watched the new “I Like Me” John Candy documentary on Netflix? It was insightful. I like me too.
No one is ever going to love you, until you love yourself, and that’s the truth.
If you knew me ten years ago, twenty years ago, even two years ago…I wasn’t the same. And well, neither were you.
I spent so many nights in tears wondering why I “wasn’t enough” – comparing myself to whomever they loved now. I thought if I could just be more, do more, become what they wanted, maybe I’d be chosen too. But healing taught me that I was never meant to compete for love. The love that’s meant for me will never ask me to shrink to earn it.
I stopped trying to be “enough” for people who were never ready for the kind of love I give. That’s the shift from pain to perspective. And what once broke my confidence, has now become my message.
It’s been a journey for sure.
Stepping back into “life” after another adventure and you might find me shuffling kids out the door in the morning and stripping down to dance naked in the kitchen.
In my last blog (and many times before) I wrote about how I always wanted to go away somewhere and come back different – and how I do. Every. Damn. Time. But the funny thing is, it no longer feels like I’m looking to escape my everyday life.
It’s adventure.
Last weekend, a very dear friend of mine and I hit the road and explored Massachusetts. Seeing Salem and all its witchiness has been on my list for as long as I can remember. I can’t wait to go back with my kids!
We spent the next day at Nantasket beach, and it was absolutely beautiful. We had the most amazing breakfast and what started as a nice walk on the beach turned into it’s very own 9 mile adventure with the most beautiful scenery (and conversation).
I know I keep saying it – but I never thought I would get here. I mean, I wanted it – but it felt impossible. I have met and been surrounded by the most amazing people who accept me for all my weirdness and don’t try to change me.
My mission: for you to never feel as alone as I felt. To be here by your side, I’m here whenever you need me. Read a blog, a post, or listen to a podcast – and when you’re ready, reach out.
I walked into 2025 a little weary and tired. I knew there was no going back, and it manifested into the most beautiful year of my life (and we still have a little while to go).
I cannot wait to see what 2026 brings.
I’m sitting in one of my favorite coffee shops. Why is it so much easier to concentrate with the gentle buzz of conversation all around me? When I’m home and my kids are talking or I can hear the TV from the floor below me, it drives me insane.
Usually, I require quiet to read and comprehend what’s in front of me – yet I sit here in this buzzing coffee shop and without struggle, the words pour from my fingers. 1,000 more words than I had than when I walked in here today.
Here we are at the beginning of a new month. New possibilities. New opportunities all around me. November holds so much for me – my birthday for one, which as you know is my “new year”.
What will I manifest for myself? My business? My people?
I have had more conversations in the last few weeks than I probably had in the first six months of jumping two feet into my business, nearly three years ago.
I don’t know when it shifted, actually, that’s not true – I have an idea. I’ve talked about it a lot in the last eight months since it happened. I spent a long-time planting seeds. Seeds take time to grow. Seeds that needed to be nurtured. Some days I had the space for it, others I spent in panic – grabbing (of sorts) at conversations trying to control the outcome.
But you know what? That doesn’t work.
And now, I am busier than I ever have been – and continually seeking to find my balance (as we all do in every new season).
I don’t like being in the same place each day, yet I’m drawn to familiarity. When I’m sitting at my desk at home (preferably with the music at a high volume), I can bounce from my chair to feel it in my soul at any given point. And I often do. When I am feeling out of balance I like to bring everything back to the basics. I light a candle, burn a little extra sage to clear the air…and pull a card.
Today: 2 of Pentacles.
The two of Pentacles is all about balance, flow, and flexible stability – finding your rhythm while juggling multiple priorities. I’ll be damned.
It often shows up when life or business feels like a dance between doing and being or when you’re managing a lot of moving parts (which, let’s be honest – you always are!).
But this card reminds me that I can handle everything that’s in motion – in my business, my family, my emotions IF (that’s a big if) you stay present and grounded in the moment right in front of you.
It’s less about “doing it all” and more about “staying in flow.”
One breath at a time.
Not everything will go as planned today, and that’s okay. What needs my energy most right now?
When I am away I am able to look at my life, my daily, my kids, my relationships from the observation deck. It gives me so much perspective. I evaluate where I am, before stepping back into it and taking action.
When I started writing, I never thought I’d be here. I had dreams, far off dreams. This year has been pivotal in my business AND my personal life. What started off as unsure, unsteady, un-you name it – turned into travel, curiosity, recognition and so much more!
After I’ve stepped outside the box, I can trust that what’s meant to flow to me, will. I’m in a cycle of movement and adaptation, forever learning the art of flow – not control.
So…sometimes that looks like dancing naked in the kitchen. Sometimes, that’s leaving all my tasks behind and taking a walk in the middle of the day.
Flow, not force.
Today, I give myself permission to move with grace between all that’s asking for my energy.
I don’t have to hold everything perfectly – I just have to stay connected to myself in the process.
Some days, balance looks like structure.
Other days, it looks like surrender.
Either way, I trust that I’m capable of handling what’s in front of me.
I am learning that flow doesn’t mean chaos – it means trust.
I can adjust, pause, breathe, and return to center as many times as I need to.
Even though I love exploring new territory, I find it just as enriching to stay home, dress in something that lights my fire (or not), and create. Paint, write, dance, evolve.
I will always be thinking of you and sending you love.
XO.
Laura
