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This rain is really messing up my new morning ritual. I’ve so been enjoying sitting on the deck in the morning sun for a few minutes in solitude. Summer has been flying by, and I’ve been enjoying it so. We’ve had some relaxed days at the lake, fun at the beach, adventures – and plenty more on the way.

Weigh in Wednesday

I weigh myself just about every day. I’m down 5 pounds from where I was a year ago, though there have been many ups and downs. But here I am. I feel like I’ve flipped a switch.  I’ve been letting some things go, leaving me more focus on my weight and getting healthier.

Dip your toe in the water, and then one tiny step in the right direction and you can be in a completely different place. I spend a majority of my day with these people who are afraid to say anything – afraid to take a step in the right direction. Afraid of confrontation. Afraid. If you don’t ask, the answer will always, always, always, be no.  I am creative my future right now, regardless of my circumstances.

Getting clear

Sometimes you need to distance yourself to see clearly. Growing apart from old habits, and circumstances and finding something different that truly moves you. Something that gets you so excited you can’t wait to get out of bed in the morning.  That’s what living is all about. Don’t settle for the default settings in life.  Sometimes the hard part about letting go, is realizing that you’ve changed and learning to start over with your new truth.

I had my most clear vision not too long ago during a session with Amy Arvary. It was quite amazing really and I’d like to go back to that clip and listen again. I’d like to share my vision with you:

I am standing on the beach, I look down at my feet – the white sand beneath me.  It was cool and slightly wet. The water directly in front of me, down to the left there’s a sandy path. I begin walking to the path and follow the curves as it gets narrower and begins to incline. Climbing up the hill foot after foot.  I’m not winded but curious to what lies ahead.

As I reach the top of the hill, I encounter a beautiful house. The view is amazing overlooking the water the sun is shining. I enter the house through the front door.  Immediately in front of me is a staircase, I turn to the left (as instructed, waiting to see my future self).  I enter a bright room, there’s no furniture in this room, I can see the hardwood floors, all the windows are open and the sheer curtains are blowing with the sea breeze. It’s so bright and refreshing…I see myself (my future self) and we greet each other, I can see what I’m wearing, jean shorts, tank top, my hair is up in a messy bun, and I’m wearing my glasses. She smiles at me and the first question out of my mouth is “Is he here”?”.  Again, with a smile she says “Yes, he’s here.  Follow me.”

I follow her past the staircase and to the right.  We walk into a beautiful kitchen, white and bright with a giant island in the middle.  She walks ahead and picks up her camera and begins taking a few pictures of some beautiful plates she has on the island. As I’m watching I’m just drawn to her confidence in what she’s doing and the light in her eyes. She’s truly content and enjoying what she’s doing.  I’ve shared with a few friends in detail, but it’s hard to describe the feelings I get from this in writing. It’s been a few months since I even had this session and clear as day I can still picture it all in my head.  When I was done I wrote it down immediately.

I have no idea who “he” is – it could be my husband, my dad, a higher power? No idea. All I know is I want to be that version of myself, and I am so open to whatever is going to come my way.

Sometimes you just need to let go a little, relax, take a deep breath, and love what is right now.❤

I am beautiful. I am fierce. I am strong. I am happy. I am love. ❤