It’s just after 5am. The baby has been sleeping terribly for the past four nights, we’ve got major teeth coming in. Poor thing. I’ve been up a lot with her at night and then up early in the morning every day. Even with the lack of sleep, I still feel focused. I’ve never felt this way before.
This guided meditation with Amy has lead me on this path of uncharted territory for me. I’m a chronic over-thinker. But these past few weeks I’m being honest with myself and looking at everything through a different light.
I know exactly what I want, and I’m never going to get it by not asking, going after it, or working hard for it.
I’ve broken down my giant goals into smaller, more clear, obtainable goals.
As I’ve moved through my weeks of practice, taking time for myself to relax and refocus, I’m letting go of a lot. And I totally catch myself as I’m doing it. It feels good to let some things go.
As we move through this week’s progression, and I’ve talked with Amy specifically about my goals, we are attacking weight loss as a focus this week. The transition is exciting for me because while I have not set foot in the gym, I’ve been diligent in the kitchen.
I weighed in this morning and I’m happy to announce a two-pound loss this week! I’m so happy to see the scale going in the downward direction after climbing for what feels like an eternity. I was scrambled, and no amount of working out will negate what was going on in the kitchen. And while this year has been a roller coaster for my life, my weight has been taking a ride right along with it.
I’m not letting what’s happened over the last few months, weeks, etc. hinder my progress. Don’t dwell. And you know what, I’m still down 43 pounds from where I started years ago. I really don’t love the pic above, but there’s such a huge difference to me at least. It feels pretty damn amazing, I look at my progress photos:
https://myinnerstruggle.com/progress-makes-perfect/
I can remember where I was, what I was doing and how unhappy I was with myself at the time. And while I do still have a long way to go, I feel more alive than I have ever felt in my whole life.
Below is an example of what I listen to each day. Put in some earbuds and take a few minutes (this one is only about five minutes) to listen to the clip below. Don’t assume you should feel a certain way or you’re not relaxed enough etc. just listen, and if you want to, listen again.
