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I Never thought I was an all or nothing girl, but here I am killing it. I give 100% of myself to whatever I’m focused on. But…I sometimes focus on the wrong stuff.

Why can’t I focus on more than one thing at a time? Why can’t I write, work, do the mom thing, and focus on my health? Balance. I can’t seem to balance.

Starve your distractions and feed your focus.

This week has been all about letting go.

Letting go of all that no longer serves me, and feeding my focus.

Big decisions, little ones. Stupid things that take space in my brain. I’m exhausted about thinking about things. Tired of waiting, waiting for things to get better, to change.

I can’t spend my whole life waiting. Because while you’re waiting everything else outside is happening.

I quit my job – well one of them. I never felt like I was in the right place from the beginning. Ive been waiting for it to turn into the job that so loved and unexpectedly changed. It it didn’t – it’s so different. Every experience teaches us something about ourselves and opens doors you never knew existed. I’ll let you know what that is when i figure it out.

I hadn’t planned on doing so but when presented with the same situation, but different story again, for the thousandth time – I decided I was done. I tried so hard to make it work, to do things differently, care less (it’s not how I’m built), I feel a little like I failed this task, but I’m just letting it go. I can’t keep waiting.

I’m excited about the next chapter, and happy to leave the toxic environment behind me.

I thrive when i can learn and grow both professionally – and as my readers know, personally.

Amy said this to me long ago …oh the places you’ll go – when you leave the waiting place. So goodbye waiting place, I’m moving on to something better. I remain open to everything that once was, and any opportunity that comes my way, as long as it serves me and makes me happy.

New adventure awaits. Thinking of you, and always, sending you love.